Coconut in the Roaring 40s

Hey all. I started writing a post earlier, about my long weekend away just gone, and it was turning into a mega post so I just saved it. Now however I am totally not into going back to it. I think I might post it as is after this one and make it a two or three parter.

Read on if you are at all interested in my self-pitying fat day ramblings…

Anyway, as indicated by the title of this post, I am having a fat day. Actually most days are fat days at the moment. Firstly, with a BMI of 33.8 I  fall into the obese category. This isn’t helped at the mo’ by the fact that its almost “that time of the month”, or that I have a wedding reception to go to this Saturday night that I have nothing to wear to, or that I only have literally 3 pairs of pants/jeans that fit me at the moment to wear on a daily basis.

Ugh. I am really in a self-pitying mood at the moment. I have been binge eating – and I obviously I know it. I am at that stage where I eat normal-to-large sized meals but like 5 times a day, and usually hiding away in my office. My skin is breaking out something fierce – and I have always had good skin. So that goes to show just how shot my system is at the moment. I keep thinking, must watch what I eat, limit my calories, exercise daily…but then the excuses always come too easy. Like, “maybe a detox would be a really good idea this weekend?….No, have a wedding reception to go to and want to get plastered…” Talk about self-sabotage.

Anyway, I will leave this lovely hole-digging thing I am doing right now, and see if I can come up with a workable plan…that I can stick to… *sigh*